Done Sem 3

fuhhh.. boleh tarik nafas lega aku bila sem 3 habis.. tapi act tak habis lagi, sebab ade kem lagi..dem..
tapi..hmmmm
nak wat gane kannn..kalau tak sebab aku malas nak bagi alasan, aku tak pegi wehh..
aku takkan pegi..tapi,,tapelahh..

aku nak citer..tadi crush aku hensem gila babas..siyes dohh..akhirnya dy cukur jugak jambang dy, potong rambut dy, kan elok gitu..hahahhahaha

kalau tak, da macam manusia primate mane ntah aku tgk,,k,,uh kejam..tapi papepon dy nampak lagi kemas arini, walaupun dy tak pandang aku, tapi lantaklah, aku tak kisah pon.. aku tau dy tak minat aku ponn

ececehhh, ayat sedih..hahhahahhaha

tapi sepanjang minggu exam ni, mental jugak la aku..entah la, tapi agak mental gak laa..

aku tak tau nape, tapi aq teringat kimi balik, aku terfikir pasal mende yang da jadik,.  mungkin aku ni banyak sangat fikir kot..

melampau tak kalau aku cakap, aku mula sayang at crush aku sikit?? takkan? sebab aku rasa aku da start sayang ke dia laa..

dah....aku lanja gambar kaki aku..hahahhahahahahaahahahahahah..bukan slalu belanja  gambar kaki.. XD..okayy..babbaiiiiiii..

risau

risau doh

aku risau kene repeat jer..exam cam hanat jer...dedua paper pulak tuh..yes, i did the best, but the best seems like its not the best that i can give..it seems like i can give more and more..i dont really push myself over the limit and i dont know how far my limit is..did i just over-worried about the things that will happens? i've so much worries in me that i dont want to show it to the public.

da r..papelah..mende da jadik da pon.. bukan boleh ulang k ape kan..at least, aku da cuba yang terbaik kan?

however, aku rase serabut semacam..
hahahaha, bila jer aku tak rase serabut..

when night is my only escape, and the tomorrow morning demand another me
because sometimes counterfeit is much more pleasure-able than the real
i just want to lean and left behind all my worries
living is harder than breath
being the day me is more meaning than the shadow beneath

guts

i want to stop

uh j yang aku piker kebelakangan ni..aku tak tau nak berhenti apa..tapi aku nak berhenti..aku takut..aku takut ngan semua benda, i cant stop thinking what will happen. i just..i just want to stop..😢😢

aku rasa penat..aku penat berlari, aku penat berjalan, aku penat dengan semua benda..dan aku jugak penat mendengar..boleh ke orang dengar aku pulak? tapi, aku bukannya ada benda nak cakap pon.. takkan aku nak cakap aku penat, everyone is tired. that is the main point. semua orang penat. takkan aku nak cakap yang aku constantly penat.

tapi thats the truth

aku penat.

tapi aku nak nampak kuat
fuck all that.

because its not enough..im not happy..
tapi manusia pernah ke rasa cukup? thats another point..manusia takkan pernah rasa cukup..

so thirst of success i neglect myself
so thirst of love i neglect myslef
so thirst of everything i killed myself
take me back in the swing and back to heaven
i would choose to be an angel
not a human which full of foolness
never get enough of what we deserve
cant let go the bad and hard to be submissive to the good